We survived the snow, obviously....and we joined my friend Kayla and her husband Alex for a little mid-day snow hiking adventure too! The snow, in all it's velvety glory, makes everything, even the not so pretty things, look beautiful!
There's been a ton of things on my mind recently. The big question I'm still asking myself is, "What do I want to be when I grow up?" I know, I'm grown up (well kinda), but I feel like this question haunts me. Sometimes it feels like everyone around me knows exactly what they want to be and what they want to do and I'm just floating around waiting to land on my career cloud. My problem has always been that I'll pursue one thing, I'll sprint that way, and then one of many things happens....I either get scared, discouraged by something or someone, or just start questioning again. This cycle has caused me to basically keep sprinting in different directions, which always leads me back to the same spot, sitting there still questioning and still looking for answers. I've always felt this pressure to have this one career, do this one thing, and be really good at it, but I've always felt like I'm not super good at any one thing. I'm learning that all this is okay. I'm learning to let it go and to relieve the pressure. Who ever said we had to be just this one certain thing for the rest of our lives?? Why not explore what we can?
Another thing that hinders me, is people. I always wonder things like, "well if I want to be a teacher, then I can't, because I already told everybody that I want to do this or that," or whatever. Well, who cares, right? I'm finally starting to remember that I don't have to answer to anyone. I can be me. So, right now, as I job search and soul search, I'm open to a lot of things and I'm just trying to figure it all out. I know that God is telling me to, LET IT GO! I know that's what he wants me to do, so I guess you can say I'm kind of seeing what's next. I know that doors will open and there's no telling what may be through those doors, but if God tells me to walk through it; I'll walk through it.
You'd be surprised of all the things I've thought of pursuing, most of them are not even similar to one another. With all this said, the biggest lesson I'm learning is that...a job doesn't define me. A job doesn't define me. A job doesn't define me. Everyday I have to keep reminding myself of this, probably forever. But one thing I am sure of, is this blog, you guys. I always look forward to posting and sharing and hoping that someone out there feels the same. So, welcome to my life lately and remember that a job doesn't define you.